Damn life sucks me and my gf broke up and i've been missing her everyday and i feel like it's all my fault. i mean we have talked about it and all that stuff and got our feelings out it in the open but it's still so hard to be around her and not just hug her, but i suppose she just wants to be single again i mean we were dating for 6 months. sad face and now her best friend which i don't know what's going on with them anymore hates me with a greater passion than the fires of hell(exaggeration) but i'm worried that she will try to influence her to just ignore me and maybe try to push me out of her life GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i feel a tad better now that i got to rant a little. p.s. that's not all of it but that's all I feel like telling right now. (i is still sad about this)

next on the agenda I am going to probably join my school's anime club i really want to do it and now i may finally be able to do it....if I can find the class, because they keep moving from room to room. lol i'm not even sure what they do exactly all i know is that it has to do with anime or manga and that's all i need to know because i need something to do on wednesdays. i have so many things to do in school right now...okay....well maybe not that many but it still feels like a lot. i have a paper to write and note cards to make and then i have to make a powerpoint presentation which goes along with the paper and then either pretty soon or later in the year i'll have to do debates OMG i really don't want to do those.

Oh and my best friend for a ton of years is no longer my friend apparently. when i was dating my gf he told her that she could do better i'm still pissed at him and i will refuse to be friends with him until he at least says he is sorry for saying that. but i accidentally called his gf a whore which i surprisingly feel good about because of how she had treated me for a long time and she acted like she cared about me and my feelings when in reality she wanted me and my ex to break up(probably) OMFG i'm so frustrated right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



p.s.i'm writing some of this stuff off the top of my head so if your reading this and know what is going on please don't be super pissed off.